School: Nikiski Middle/High School
Initially, this wasn’t supposed to be anything. It was just a doodle so I could try working with oil paints for the first time. It was hard and definitely a learning process. It was messy, tedious, and took a lot of focus and precision I hadn’t previously expressed in any of my other works. But, looking at it now, I realize it meant something before I even knew it meant anything.
It’s hard to pull yourself out of a storm. Sometimes it’s hard to realize you’re even in the middle of one, especially if the storm is inside your head. I recently started counseling to help myself heal, and my counselor is a very nice woman. She’s easily able to look inside and figure out what’s going on and what I need to fix it. The fish represents her and her advice to me. It represents all the help she’s offered- her guidance, her understanding and the way she can see right through me. It’s easy for her to look into the eye of my storm and tell me how I can get out of it. She’s teaching me, helping me through it, and helping me take the steps to ease the raging waters crashing in my head. The fish is my savior.